Thursday, February 25, 2010

The little post where I get real

For me it started with Brittany & Brown Eyed Girl. These women shared (in the posts I linked to their names, so you should go check them out) their imperfections.

We all know people who highlight the really good parts of their lives. Which is understandable. I think most of us like to put our best foot forward.

But sometimes, I feel like I just need to get things off of my chest. Own up to it (whatever IT is). You know, make it my bish.

So here it is. I'm stuck. I'm stuck at a weight that I'm happier with (compared to where I was before I began my journey to become more healthy), but at the weight that I'm not completely happy with.

I know how I put the weight on in the first place. I ate too much. I like food. I find comfort in food. I'm learning how to look at it as nourishment for my body, but I still like it. Especially if it tastes all rich & yummy.

But rich & yummy go straight to my tummy.

Sigh.

Traveling can be hard. I know I've posted Tuesday's Traveler before with tips on how to still maintain a healthy lifestyle. And while I follow them most of the time, sometimes I don't.

Like last night. When I had a steak sandwich for dinner followed by a slice of blueberry pie with ice cream.

I can make excuses. "It is cold here. I'm tired of rain/snow/sleet/cold. I want comfort food."

But I recognize them for what they are. Excuses.

With each day being a new day, I choose to begin again.

I may one day do a before/after post with pictures. Perhaps even share my weight with you. Scary.

Now, I know there are people out there who are suffering from worse - health issues, babies they're desperate for & praying for, family circumstances that are beyond control - I know this.

I also know that there are other things I struggle with that make me far less than perfect. This is one I feel comfortable with sharing.

So as I continue to work to become more healthy, know that I'll be thinking of each of you. We're all far from perfect & if you choose to share your imperfections or your goals or your struggles, know I'll cheer you on every step of the way.

21 comments:

Morgan said...

Beautifully written post. We're all definitely cheering you on in your journey!

Heather said...

Great post, I love your honesty.

I wish you luck and encouragement in your weight loss journey!!

katie + bret said...

Very good post sweet girl - I think we have all been there with our excuses (Especially in the winter). When YOU are ready and when your body is ready, you will meet your weight loss goals - I have faith in you! :)

Brittany Ann said...

Beautiful. Just like you. I adore you, no matter what those last few pounds do or don't do. You're a gorgeous person inside and out. And I adore your honesty and forthrightness.

But know you can do whatever you set your mind to, because you are wonderful. We're behind you!

Michelle said...

I love you & I adore your honesty...and now I want some blueberry pie. Ha! ;)

Amber said...

"Rich and yummy go straight to my tummy." I'll have to remember that one next time I reach for something my body doesn't need :-) Glad you were able to share... that's what we're here for! You're beautiful just the way you are, with or without those last few pounds you're wanting to lose! XOXO

Brown Girl said...

Good luck doll, you can do it. It's hard and it's a life style change but I believe in you!!

USCEmily said...

Thanks for sharing! It takes courage to reveal imperfections and struggles with those imperfections. Currently I am dealing with terrible skin. Nothing I do seems to help, so this morning I had to break down and make an appointment with a dermatologist. At nearly 28, I feel like this is a problem that should have been gone by now, and it's been hard to admit to myself that I needed to see someone who could help me because obviously I couldn't do it myself.
So, we all have our own little struggles, and it's nice to know that we're not alone, regardless that our struggles may be different.

Sheesh, sorry for that long comment!

Ashley @ KiwisandCocktails said...

This is a great post!
I should do one. My struggle is the same as yours. Except, I have gained back what I lost, and I am currently at my largest size in my life. Even my "fat pants" dont fit! I work out all the time, I cut out any week day drinking and keept it light on the weekends..but still NOTHING! I eat very healthy foods...but I eat TOO Much of them. THat is MY probele. I just like to eat too! :)
YOu will get there! I know it!

MCW said...

There are so many little things I could nit pick about myself. The main thing is weight! Such a struggle...all the time! We will do it...

brown eyed girl said...

I love this post, I can wholeheartedly relate to your struggles. We are our own worst critics, and I am super-hard on myself at times, but finding friends like you out there, who are honest and open and beautiful on the inside and out, help me get through those judgmental times and see good things!

XOXO

Molly Lou Gifts said...

Kim, this post is beautiful. You are so right and I so needed to hear this today. I know we are all not perfect, however, today I needed a friend to share with me that they were in fact not perfect. I am having one of those days too. As you know, one of my biggest struggles is weight and excuses are my biggest threat and weakness.

I love you for so many things and this post with your honesty and "keepin' it real" just added one more. I hope you make it home safely and have a great weekend.

Susannah said...

Girl, you are doing great, don't get down on yourself! I know how you feel though-I feel like I've been hovering in the low 160's now FOREVER-and if I would quit the excuses, I could and would lose every week! Stay honest with yourself-it really helps! :D
Love!

Carrie @ Laugh Love Eat Ice Cream said...

I can completely relate. I struggle with my weight too. I've debated whether I should do a post about it, because I've come quite a long way since my highest weight in June 2007. Since then, I went to my lowest weight on my wedding day 45 pounds lighter! I've gained about 7 pounds since then and while I know I'm in no way fat, I feel the best about myself when I'm skinny. I think it's something almost everyone struggles with.

Jane said...

I feel you! Loving your honesty!

d.a.r. said...

I love your honesty!!!

anonymous prep said...

My weight is never far from my mind, especially when life gets in the way of my hour long cardio sessions, or five times a week gym habit. I have to conciously modify my behaviors because for me it's a slippery slope of excuses about tomorrow and tomorrow, which don't get me anywhere. Good luck with your weight loss goals!

Tara Gibson said...

great honest post girl. I wish you the best luck in your weight loss journey. You are fabulous! : )

Lil' Woman said...

Beautifully honest post! :) I heart you girl!

Sole Matters said...

thats one thing that i have been proud of myself for - being honest on my blog. esp. when i blogged about my relationships. not everything is all rainbows and butterflies, and i admire that you have the courage to write about the hard stuff.

Sole Matters said...

p.s. that pie sounds awesome.